EROTIC CITIES THE FLIP-SIDE EPISODE THE DIRTY-DIRTY SOUTH EPISODE 12

I do apologize for the lateness in episode twelve. I seem to have my hands in so much with writing and so much more. However when we last met up I was speaking on Officer Dix who had actually taken a woman into a life that she knew nothing about and now she is full fledged into a world that I am sure she didn't think of coming into.

For some people that get into the erotic side of life to me or tortured in some way or another. Now I am not saying that if you like having sex you have an issue. But some people think being urinated on, defecated on, tying someone up and beating them, wearing women s clothing and prostituting (men) there is nothing wrong with it. But when you have men that say they are heterosexual and are not and have some eerie ways about them and people who love sex are literally down-low sexual deviants. There is some cause for a person to be a little leery.

I am now going to tell a story of a woman who has now left Atlanta and moved to Los Angeles. She lived in California and had a very non-committed relationship with her husband whom in my opinion she should have never married. However I knew there was a curiosity in being with women. So at the time of her living in Cali she was considered bi-curious. I was not attracted to her in that way to want to sleep with her. She was a very good friend of mine. But her nose was open from being around me and others who at that time associated with lesbians. I still at this present time in my life may judge and may not judge of what flavors people like and dislike when it comes to sex or a partner. For I am not the ultimate judge of character. But I can agree to disagree. However in my life I have had and known people of many walks and what they do and don't do behind close doors at the end of the day is not my business and does not make me say “ I cannot longer befriend you because you do things sexually that I don't do” no! I am merely stating that what people do and don't do doesn't bother me unless it effects me personally.

I shall call this woman “Sheila” Sheila was caught up mentally and emotionally with the travails of her marriage that she had decided to make a move to Atlanta and she lived there for eight years. And this is where the sexual beast in her came out! Sheila was now more of a party animal than ever. She attended swinger parties that were held on the outskirts of Atlanta and come to find out that a close friend of hers that she had been knowing for years was bi. Not only was she bi, but her husband was also into swinging. Thus began the intimate affair of Sheila, her best friend and husband in many threesomes and swinger parties. Sheila got so wrapped up in this lifestyle that she found men in bars and clubs that she wanted to experience many sexual escapades with. One in particular was with her boyfriend at the time. They went into a club and Sheila picked up a man and brought him home to have sex with while her boyfriend hid in the closet and watched. This later on became a problem for him because he later on began to stalk her and threaten her physically, verbally and emotionally because of her open affairs and swinging lifestyle. Swinging can be a dangerous game! I have met men and women who were so deep in this game with drugs and open sex that jealousy reared its ugly head and drugs took a toll on their bodies.

Imagine if you are a man and you have had sex with so many women that you cannot obtain a hard-on! I have witnessed some men who wanted a woman so bad and couldn't get it up and their frustration turned into rage! Constantly pulling at their private to MAKE it get hard by wating others have sex. And to no avail they stay flaccid.

By the time that Sheila had left Atlanta not because she wanted to but because she had to for a certain family member that needed help. She was so open that she destroyed relationships with very close people because there were no boundaries for her. You cannot expect all of the people you know for years in your life to be open-minded to the choices that you make. When Sheila had come on to me we were coming from a friends home she went to school with. She wanted me to go to her house first before dropping me off to my home. Can a woman rape a woman? To this day I am not quite sure of that. But I do know that I was placed in a very precarious situation with her. Why did I need to come to her house when she would be passing up my home to get to hers? With her child in the backseat Sheila was driving and had reached over and put her hand down my top! I had been knowing Sheila since we were kids and for me this was a shock and she was hurting me by pinching on my breast so hard. I looked over at her and removed her hand and told her that it wasn't nice to do that especially having her child in the backseat who was wide awake! She stopped and I told her to take me home. She didn't, she drove to her home. When she got out of the car, I sat there and told her I would wait for her. She bid me to come in saying that it would not take long, she wanted to smoke a joint. I figured she was doing this to get some courage. So while she put her child to bed because it was late, she had poured a drink and had rolled a joint. I refused both, I was tired, edgy and my heart was beating fast because I was not comfortable. One drink ended very quickly and a second drink was poured. She kept offering and I kept refusing. Let me pause here, I have been around men who have done this very thing to me before and I was nervous and scared. Being a victim of rape and molestation you can feel the evil of a set up. And to me this was indeed a set up. I had mentioned to Sheila that if she kept drinking she would not be able to drive me home. Which I might add was no more than fifteen minutes away from where she lived. And just like that as she got up from the couch and went into her bathroom and came out she was all over me! Sheila is not a small woman at all! She was groping me and trying to get my clothes off as I tried to resist her, her weight and force were beginning to wear me down. Once she got the picture that I didn't want to be intimate with her in no way whatsoever her feelings were hurt! And because of this incident we are no longer friends. Twenty years plus of a friendship ruined! See the oxymoron thing about being bi, open sexually or swinging does not mean that you wantto be that way with everyone in that journey. For some that do, that sleep with any and everyone and not because of sexual attraction there has to be something psychologically wrong with them. Would one want to sleep with an unkempt man or woman who sleeps in alleys just to have sex? I think not. Of course I am not speaking of someone addicted to drugs, that is a whole other story.

We are who we are and experience things that we want to because there are thoughts that have been implanted by others, what we have seen, read and what has happened to us in our past lives. I can honestly say that being raped an molested opened up the doors for me being highly sexual. I didn't take the I am scared of men and don't want to have sex side. No I ran to any and every man that would have me! (within reason no bums or addicts or men who were not attractive sexaully) Which now brings me to the many down-low men in Atlanta. Though I have spoken many times on this subject in the Erotic Cities Episodes I can't say it enough. Because of this sexual liberation which is no longer kept in the closet by America. I feel it is unfair to those who are heterosexual (women) and they meet a man who they think are heterosexual as well and they have strong desires to be with men as well. And in the erotic city you have many women who know that their husbands or partners are bi-sexual and they live out these fantasies in threesomes and bi-sexual orgies so that they can keep their man. Is this erotic? Or is this now a sickness? Or is this some seedy event that has happened in the past of someone that because they maybe were molested or raped by a man that they now have sexual desires to be with men? Or were they feeling men and women ever since they were adolescent? Many questions right?

This now brings me to “Donald” a man who I can say was all man and loved women and was a strong man inside and out. Nothing about him told me that he could be with a man in any way whatsoever, but some of the things that Donald requested or was turned on by led me to believe that there was some moment in his past that he had experienced a man sexually, and this bothered me because he was not being truthful. Needless to say that we ended our affair. Maybe I had turned Donald out sexually where he felt he could open up to some “new adventures” with me. But wearing a strapped phallus was not a desire of mine, I on no way wanted to have anal sex with him, that is me doing him!

Well my time is up again! And next we will venture a little into Holly weird. But will the adventures be as wild as Atlanta? Stay tuned for episode 13!

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