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I do apologize for the lateness in episode twelve. I seem to have my hands in so much with writing and so much more. However when we last met up I was speaking on Officer Dix who had actually taken a woman into a life that she knew nothing about and now she is full fledged into a world that I am sure she didn't think of coming into.
For some people that get into the erotic side of life to me or tortured in some way or another. Now I am not saying that if you like having sex you have an issue. But some people think being urinated on, defecated on, tying someone up and beating them, wearing women s clothing and prostituting (men) there is nothing wrong with it. But when you have men that say they are heterosexual and are not and have some eerie ways about them and people who love sex are literally down-low sexual deviants. There is some cause for a person to be a little leery.
I am now going to tell a story of a woman who has now left Atlanta and moved to Los Angeles. She lived in California and had a very non-committed relationship with her husband whom in my opinion she should have never married. However I knew there was a curiosity in being with women. So at the time of her living in Cali she was considered bi-curious. I was not attracted to her in that way to want to sleep with her. She was a very good friend of mine. But her nose was open from being around me and others who at that time associated with lesbians. I still at this present time in my life may judge and may not judge of what flavors people like and dislike when it comes to sex or a partner. For I am not the ultimate judge of character. But I can agree to disagree. However in my life I have had and known people of many walks and what they do and don't do behind close doors at the end of the day is not my business and does not make me say “ I cannot longer befriend you because you do things sexually that I don't do” no! I am merely stating that what people do and don't do doesn't bother me unless it effects me personally.
I shall call this woman “Sheila” Sheila was caught up mentally and emotionally with the travails of her marriage that she had decided to make a move to Atlanta and she lived there for eight years. And this is where the sexual beast in her came out! Sheila was now more of a party animal than ever. She attended swinger parties that were held on the outskirts of Atlanta and come to find out that a close friend of hers that she had been knowing for years was bi. Not only was she bi, but her husband was also into swinging. Thus began the intimate affair of Sheila, her best friend and husband in many threesomes and swinger parties. Sheila got so wrapped up in this lifestyle that she found men in bars and clubs that she wanted to experience many sexual escapades with. One in particular was with her boyfriend at the time. They went into a club and Sheila picked up a man and brought him home to have sex with while her boyfriend hid in the closet and watched. This later on became a problem for him because he later on began to stalk her and threaten her physically, verbally and emotionally because of her open affairs and swinging lifestyle. Swinging can be a dangerous game! I have met men and women who were so deep in this game with drugs and open sex that jealousy reared its ugly head and drugs took a toll on their bodies.
Imagine if you are a man and you have had sex with so many women that you cannot obtain a hard-on! I have witnessed some men who wanted a woman so bad and couldn't get it up and their frustration turned into rage! Constantly pulling at their private to MAKE it get hard by wating others have sex. And to no avail they stay flaccid.
By the time that Sheila had left Atlanta not because she wanted to but because she had to for a certain family member that needed help. She was so open that she destroyed relationships with very close people because there were no boundaries for her. You cannot expect all of the people you know for years in your life to be open-minded to the choices that you make. When Sheila had come on to me we were coming from a friends home she went to school with. She wanted me to go to her house first before dropping me off to my home. Can a woman rape a woman? To this day I am not quite sure of that. But I do know that I was placed in a very precarious situation with her. Why did I need to come to her house when she would be passing up my home to get to hers? With her child in the backseat Sheila was driving and had reached over and put her hand down my top! I had been knowing Sheila since we were kids and for me this was a shock and she was hurting me by pinching on my breast so hard. I looked over at her and removed her hand and told her that it wasn't nice to do that especially having her child in the backseat who was wide awake! She stopped and I told her to take me home. She didn't, she drove to her home. When she got out of the car, I sat there and told her I would wait for her. She bid me to come in saying that it would not take long, she wanted to smoke a joint. I figured she was doing this to get some courage. So while she put her child to bed because it was late, she had poured a drink and had rolled a joint. I refused both, I was tired, edgy and my heart was beating fast because I was not comfortable. One drink ended very quickly and a second drink was poured. She kept offering and I kept refusing. Let me pause here, I have been around men who have done this very thing to me before and I was nervous and scared. Being a victim of rape and molestation you can feel the evil of a set up. And to me this was indeed a set up. I had mentioned to Sheila that if she kept drinking she would not be able to drive me home. Which I might add was no more than fifteen minutes away from where she lived. And just like that as she got up from the couch and went into her bathroom and came out she was all over me! Sheila is not a small woman at all! She was groping me and trying to get my clothes off as I tried to resist her, her weight and force were beginning to wear me down. Once she got the picture that I didn't want to be intimate with her in no way whatsoever her feelings were hurt! And because of this incident we are no longer friends. Twenty years plus of a friendship ruined! See the oxymoron thing about being bi, open sexually or swinging does not mean that you wantto be that way with everyone in that journey. For some that do, that sleep with any and everyone and not because of sexual attraction there has to be something psychologically wrong with them. Would one want to sleep with an unkempt man or woman who sleeps in alleys just to have sex? I think not. Of course I am not speaking of someone addicted to drugs, that is a whole other story.
We are who we are and experience things that we want to because there are thoughts that have been implanted by others, what we have seen, read and what has happened to us in our past lives. I can honestly say that being raped an molested opened up the doors for me being highly sexual. I didn't take the I am scared of men and don't want to have sex side. No I ran to any and every man that would have me! (within reason no bums or addicts or men who were not attractive sexaully) Which now brings me to the many down-low men in Atlanta. Though I have spoken many times on this subject in the Erotic Cities Episodes I can't say it enough. Because of this sexual liberation which is no longer kept in the closet by America. I feel it is unfair to those who are heterosexual (women) and they meet a man who they think are heterosexual as well and they have strong desires to be with men as well. And in the erotic city you have many women who know that their husbands or partners are bi-sexual and they live out these fantasies in threesomes and bi-sexual orgies so that they can keep their man. Is this erotic? Or is this now a sickness? Or is this some seedy event that has happened in the past of someone that because they maybe were molested or raped by a man that they now have sexual desires to be with men? Or were they feeling men and women ever since they were adolescent? Many questions right?
This now brings me to “Donald” a man who I can say was all man and loved women and was a strong man inside and out. Nothing about him told me that he could be with a man in any way whatsoever, but some of the things that Donald requested or was turned on by led me to believe that there was some moment in his past that he had experienced a man sexually, and this bothered me because he was not being truthful. Needless to say that we ended our affair. Maybe I had turned Donald out sexually where he felt he could open up to some “new adventures” with me. But wearing a strapped phallus was not a desire of mine, I on no way wanted to have anal sex with him, that is me doing him!
Well my time is up again! And next we will venture a little into Holly weird. But will the adventures be as wild as Atlanta? Stay tuned for episode 13!
Toy High
www.justtoywrittenexpressions.com
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
EROTIC CITIES THE FLIP-SIDE THE DIRTY DIRTY SOUTH EPISODE 11
In the last episode (ten) I left off speaking of Will, a man of oddity to most as well as myself. However you must understand this. I drew people to me like moths to flames and bees to honey and my persona is still of such that I draw people to me. And Will felt that it was safe and also felt very comfortable with telling me his inner secrets and about the demons that tortured him on a daily basis. For most people even those who stepped out of the box sexually thought that Will was a “freak” I had my own ideas of him, but I tried not to judge Will.
When Will Grabbed his Janis backpack he had placed inside it condoms, and a contraption to make ones penis big and hard. I had seen these penis pumps before but I had never ever met anyone who had actually used them. I thought this was for the men who really had a small penis and for men who were in the porn industry. When they had to prepare themselves for a scene and couldn’t get it up. I don’t know, cock ring yes, penis pump no!
I asked Will why did he feel the need to use it. His response was that he had used it before he had performed his male exotic shows. And that to me set off an alarm! He was not “performing” these shows as he use to. And so now this device had become addictive to him and was the only way that he could achieve an erection. Shaking my head at this, our union was not a successful one at all! And for me was not worth my time or his! Though I cannot say that he was nervous or intimidated I would say that Will was a man that I knew in my heart of hearts was majorly dysfunctional in many ways, and I will tell you why.
Will and I did not continue our “friendship” because of his sexual dysfunction or some of his sick fantasies but because of his attitude negative attitude. But I am moving too fast in the story.
Will had began to tell me some of his deep seeded issues as time went along. One was that he loved his music and he made a very nice living off of it, producing music for commercials, movies and websites. I was astonished at some of the music he made and quite impressed. From world music, classical, jazz he produced it all.
Will was heavy into church and played drums he spoke of how important it was to meet a woman who loved God and put him first while Will smoked and drank heavily and used other drugs. Will had also told me that he needed a woman who was very open sexually and met his needs when it came to sex. Such as swinging, ménage a trios’, and the big one that had taken me for a real loop was he wanted a woman to put a strap on and give him anal sex and he said he was not gay! I seriously questioned this matter, why would a straight man let a woman pretend to be a man and have “fake” anal sex with him? Had he had it with a man before? Or had he had a woman perform this to him many times before? I was confused as he was and I didn’t ask! It seemed that Will had wanted a lot of sexual favors and also wanted to experience a lot of things but was not heavy into a lot of things. Very oxymoron if I say so myself! Now before I say this, I do NOT want any emails whatsoever sent to me. But there have been some men that have told me a lot of strange things go on behind close doors with frat brothers. That is not to say that all men who join fraternities are gay, bi-sexual or down-low! But some stories I have heard in regards to this alerted me to men who join fraternities and some of the things they do to get in them and be apart of them. I mean we can say that when men/women go to college they experience a lot of things (sexually) that they didn’t do or knew about until they went away to school. And the funny thing about all of this was his frat brother whom he was very close to and would do ANYTHING for and came over to his house on a regular. It wasn’t to me anything that got me, they shared women, money, sex and whatever else and his best frat brother was married!
Will got stranger and stranger by the moment. It was his constant belittling of me that made me cut him off. He felt his talent was way above mine and what I did meant literally nothing! I of course didn’t want any sexual relationship with Will once I found out all his dirty secrets, for me he was a confused dysfunctional little boy! And that was my opinion but I never told him you are sick and need help! That was not my place. I mean that he was confused about his life and expected a whole lot from others and he couldn’t give that same respect at times he was too raw with his candor. It also offended many colleagues of mine when he asked them “weird” things. I could no longer take up for Will.
When I had found someone to date, it was then that Will had started coming back by. Or shall I say wanted to come by my home and it was then his jealousy and insecurity came out to play. I hadn’t talked to Will in a year and once we caught up with each other. His deep seeded fantasies and sexual prowess have increased and now he is “mad” that he can no longer find a woman to satisfy his needs.
I am sure there will be a lot of people that will agree with me that when you work in a very large office, (sometimes it really doesn’t matter) that there is a lot of flirting, sexing and many marital affairs! I have seen this in many offices but never to the echelon I had experienced in the A. As I said earlier in previous episodes of ATL office romance, cheating and drama were in full effect and the women were hard up to have a man it didn’t matter if he was married or had a live-in girlfriend or in a relationship of some sort nothing was off limits!
A married man by the name of Chad wore his wedding ring with pride and any company event he brought his wife. Chad flirted with any and every young woman to older women. As long as you were a woman! Chad had affairs with many of the women in the office. And at first when I met Chad I thought he was a very attractive man! He was training the new recruits at first until he moved over into another department. I took Chad for a very low-key guy not out and about roaming as he was. Chad was a comedian and this “9-5” was just his means to an end until he “made it big” I saw as Chad caused drama on the low and almost got caught and about to lose his job because he was doing things with fellow employees he should not be. Smoking weed, drinking, hanging out, clubbing. See once he had made it to supervisor it was told that you could no longer fraternize with the employees. This was in their handbook! After being at the job for two years I succumbed to the madness. Matter of fact Chad came to the parties I threw!!!! And had sex with one of the employees that was there!!!! Wedding ring on and all and asked me would I join the both of them!! I asked Chad why he cheated on his wife; he said “I don’t think of it as cheating. I am faithful to her” Huh? (Scratching side of my head)
There were people that had sex in their cars in front/directly in front of the office management’s window and some of the supervisors were engaging in this same way on lunch breaks in the parking lot in front of security cameras!! And I know this because they got caught and fired!!! Were people that hot? That horny where they had to have sex in the parking lot of their job not even twenty feet from the front door? Whoo! Overwhelming!!
I had met two cops in ATL and one of them I got very close with. I will refer to one as Officer B. Dix. Officer Dix was a man that was so deep and caught in the sexual world that I personally thought he may have lost sight of being a cop. I know that may not make sense but you could call him on his cell at either two jobs he had and he was ready for “pillow talk”
I had met Officer Dix at an adult party. He had brought his “new girlfriend” to the party. His girlfriend was friendly and very nice, I could also tell that she was a woman that was very very blunt and she I soon found out later was very insecure. Here was a lady in my opinion that didn’t have anything to worry about as far as looks wise and body wise. If I had her height and looks I would be galloping down a runway! “Tracy” told to me by Office Dix was that he had a lifestyle in which he was not walking away from and if she wanted to be with him she had to flow with it. Now let me first give you some background on Tracy. She had been sexually, mentally, emotionally and physically abused from her parents to her husbands and family members. These were some of the people that took advantage of her love, body, kindness and when I simply just say she had problems, No she really had problems. And she also had serious health problems!!!
Officer Dix told me that he had taken her to a couple of places, (as I told you before there were a lot of legal clubs that hosted swinger parties just as if you were going to a regular dance club) that he was having “patience” with her and that she was working on it. Now when you are sexually abused, emotionally and mentally abused a huge portion of those people have that “learned behavior syndrome” is what I call it. If you have witnessed your parents fighting a lot of times you will find yourself in the same dysfunctional relationship. Being hit, yelling, fighting; this is normal. Also for some who have been sexually abused run to sex full throttle and have a very promiscuous sex life. And so was the case with Tracy.
Tracy I could tell wanted to and didn’t want to do this at the same time. Her experience this night was having sex with another woman, well not fully. Her boyfriend and “Chuck” Can you imagine three people coming at you all at the same time? Interesting I know there have been super orgy scenes in porn but her breakout role was overwhelming! And as I was told much later on Tracy did not enjoy or was attracted to women.
Tracy a lot of times was very pensive when it came to watching Officer Dix have sex with someone else, and she enjoyed going to the parties (the ones I gave) but not the ones that were dark, gloomy and you were being stalked. At that time it was my hustle and I gave kid-adult parties with themes, games, light and laughter! You had a choice, and there was security at my gatherings when I really got started.
It was time going forth that Officer Dix seemed to push and push Tracy into more and more illicit behavior. I had a rapport with each of them (friendship only) more so with Officer Dix who at one point said he “loved” her and wanted to marry her making this his third marriage as well as hers. But the “swinging” was his carte blanche to being with other women. But he would not “cheat” on her with another woman unless she knew about it. You cannot have a relationship (my opinion) in the swinger-ism if you have an insecure girlfriend/boyfriend.
Officer Dix pursued me while I turned away and told him you love her. He wanted to be with me lots of times. I could not get involved with that mellow drama at all! Officer Dix had no idea of what he was “creating” He felt that all of this was for his needs and his needs only. As time went by more and more he wanted to attend these sex parties and more and more it was mentally and emotionally hurting Tracy. All the while he pushed the more Tracy was happy to have a man in her life that she felt “loved” her sincerely. But this was not so, he then later told her they needed, again “they” needed a girlfriend. And so it was they were now on the hunt. They found one and her real sexual experience with two women and her boyfriend at the same time she enjoyed and was now getting very close to the new “girlfriend” because they had a lot in common!
It was now that Tracy had begun to go to parties by herself without Officer Dix, and she went to these parties with the girlfriend when she came in town or hooked up with others she had met along the way. Tracy was hooked, and Officer Dix had now gotten tired of the scene he had been in for three years! You see Officer Dix was sick with cancer and did not know it as of yet so he was always tired.
As Tracy was sick with Lupus and could no longer work Officer Dix was taking care of her and had grew tired and they never got married, he wanted her to move out of his home they had together. It took her three months to move out and as soon as she did, she now was a “lesbian” and had a girlfriend and back to work. I told Officer Dix this was all his doing, his fault as he relayed the information to me about her.
Well my time is up again!!! I must go, but I will of course catch you on the 12th episode of Erotic Cities!!
Toy High
www.justtoywrittenexpressions.com
When Will Grabbed his Janis backpack he had placed inside it condoms, and a contraption to make ones penis big and hard. I had seen these penis pumps before but I had never ever met anyone who had actually used them. I thought this was for the men who really had a small penis and for men who were in the porn industry. When they had to prepare themselves for a scene and couldn’t get it up. I don’t know, cock ring yes, penis pump no!
I asked Will why did he feel the need to use it. His response was that he had used it before he had performed his male exotic shows. And that to me set off an alarm! He was not “performing” these shows as he use to. And so now this device had become addictive to him and was the only way that he could achieve an erection. Shaking my head at this, our union was not a successful one at all! And for me was not worth my time or his! Though I cannot say that he was nervous or intimidated I would say that Will was a man that I knew in my heart of hearts was majorly dysfunctional in many ways, and I will tell you why.
Will and I did not continue our “friendship” because of his sexual dysfunction or some of his sick fantasies but because of his attitude negative attitude. But I am moving too fast in the story.
Will had began to tell me some of his deep seeded issues as time went along. One was that he loved his music and he made a very nice living off of it, producing music for commercials, movies and websites. I was astonished at some of the music he made and quite impressed. From world music, classical, jazz he produced it all.
Will was heavy into church and played drums he spoke of how important it was to meet a woman who loved God and put him first while Will smoked and drank heavily and used other drugs. Will had also told me that he needed a woman who was very open sexually and met his needs when it came to sex. Such as swinging, ménage a trios’, and the big one that had taken me for a real loop was he wanted a woman to put a strap on and give him anal sex and he said he was not gay! I seriously questioned this matter, why would a straight man let a woman pretend to be a man and have “fake” anal sex with him? Had he had it with a man before? Or had he had a woman perform this to him many times before? I was confused as he was and I didn’t ask! It seemed that Will had wanted a lot of sexual favors and also wanted to experience a lot of things but was not heavy into a lot of things. Very oxymoron if I say so myself! Now before I say this, I do NOT want any emails whatsoever sent to me. But there have been some men that have told me a lot of strange things go on behind close doors with frat brothers. That is not to say that all men who join fraternities are gay, bi-sexual or down-low! But some stories I have heard in regards to this alerted me to men who join fraternities and some of the things they do to get in them and be apart of them. I mean we can say that when men/women go to college they experience a lot of things (sexually) that they didn’t do or knew about until they went away to school. And the funny thing about all of this was his frat brother whom he was very close to and would do ANYTHING for and came over to his house on a regular. It wasn’t to me anything that got me, they shared women, money, sex and whatever else and his best frat brother was married!
Will got stranger and stranger by the moment. It was his constant belittling of me that made me cut him off. He felt his talent was way above mine and what I did meant literally nothing! I of course didn’t want any sexual relationship with Will once I found out all his dirty secrets, for me he was a confused dysfunctional little boy! And that was my opinion but I never told him you are sick and need help! That was not my place. I mean that he was confused about his life and expected a whole lot from others and he couldn’t give that same respect at times he was too raw with his candor. It also offended many colleagues of mine when he asked them “weird” things. I could no longer take up for Will.
When I had found someone to date, it was then that Will had started coming back by. Or shall I say wanted to come by my home and it was then his jealousy and insecurity came out to play. I hadn’t talked to Will in a year and once we caught up with each other. His deep seeded fantasies and sexual prowess have increased and now he is “mad” that he can no longer find a woman to satisfy his needs.
I am sure there will be a lot of people that will agree with me that when you work in a very large office, (sometimes it really doesn’t matter) that there is a lot of flirting, sexing and many marital affairs! I have seen this in many offices but never to the echelon I had experienced in the A. As I said earlier in previous episodes of ATL office romance, cheating and drama were in full effect and the women were hard up to have a man it didn’t matter if he was married or had a live-in girlfriend or in a relationship of some sort nothing was off limits!
A married man by the name of Chad wore his wedding ring with pride and any company event he brought his wife. Chad flirted with any and every young woman to older women. As long as you were a woman! Chad had affairs with many of the women in the office. And at first when I met Chad I thought he was a very attractive man! He was training the new recruits at first until he moved over into another department. I took Chad for a very low-key guy not out and about roaming as he was. Chad was a comedian and this “9-5” was just his means to an end until he “made it big” I saw as Chad caused drama on the low and almost got caught and about to lose his job because he was doing things with fellow employees he should not be. Smoking weed, drinking, hanging out, clubbing. See once he had made it to supervisor it was told that you could no longer fraternize with the employees. This was in their handbook! After being at the job for two years I succumbed to the madness. Matter of fact Chad came to the parties I threw!!!! And had sex with one of the employees that was there!!!! Wedding ring on and all and asked me would I join the both of them!! I asked Chad why he cheated on his wife; he said “I don’t think of it as cheating. I am faithful to her” Huh? (Scratching side of my head)
There were people that had sex in their cars in front/directly in front of the office management’s window and some of the supervisors were engaging in this same way on lunch breaks in the parking lot in front of security cameras!! And I know this because they got caught and fired!!! Were people that hot? That horny where they had to have sex in the parking lot of their job not even twenty feet from the front door? Whoo! Overwhelming!!
I had met two cops in ATL and one of them I got very close with. I will refer to one as Officer B. Dix. Officer Dix was a man that was so deep and caught in the sexual world that I personally thought he may have lost sight of being a cop. I know that may not make sense but you could call him on his cell at either two jobs he had and he was ready for “pillow talk”
I had met Officer Dix at an adult party. He had brought his “new girlfriend” to the party. His girlfriend was friendly and very nice, I could also tell that she was a woman that was very very blunt and she I soon found out later was very insecure. Here was a lady in my opinion that didn’t have anything to worry about as far as looks wise and body wise. If I had her height and looks I would be galloping down a runway! “Tracy” told to me by Office Dix was that he had a lifestyle in which he was not walking away from and if she wanted to be with him she had to flow with it. Now let me first give you some background on Tracy. She had been sexually, mentally, emotionally and physically abused from her parents to her husbands and family members. These were some of the people that took advantage of her love, body, kindness and when I simply just say she had problems, No she really had problems. And she also had serious health problems!!!
Officer Dix told me that he had taken her to a couple of places, (as I told you before there were a lot of legal clubs that hosted swinger parties just as if you were going to a regular dance club) that he was having “patience” with her and that she was working on it. Now when you are sexually abused, emotionally and mentally abused a huge portion of those people have that “learned behavior syndrome” is what I call it. If you have witnessed your parents fighting a lot of times you will find yourself in the same dysfunctional relationship. Being hit, yelling, fighting; this is normal. Also for some who have been sexually abused run to sex full throttle and have a very promiscuous sex life. And so was the case with Tracy.
Tracy I could tell wanted to and didn’t want to do this at the same time. Her experience this night was having sex with another woman, well not fully. Her boyfriend and “Chuck” Can you imagine three people coming at you all at the same time? Interesting I know there have been super orgy scenes in porn but her breakout role was overwhelming! And as I was told much later on Tracy did not enjoy or was attracted to women.
Tracy a lot of times was very pensive when it came to watching Officer Dix have sex with someone else, and she enjoyed going to the parties (the ones I gave) but not the ones that were dark, gloomy and you were being stalked. At that time it was my hustle and I gave kid-adult parties with themes, games, light and laughter! You had a choice, and there was security at my gatherings when I really got started.
It was time going forth that Officer Dix seemed to push and push Tracy into more and more illicit behavior. I had a rapport with each of them (friendship only) more so with Officer Dix who at one point said he “loved” her and wanted to marry her making this his third marriage as well as hers. But the “swinging” was his carte blanche to being with other women. But he would not “cheat” on her with another woman unless she knew about it. You cannot have a relationship (my opinion) in the swinger-ism if you have an insecure girlfriend/boyfriend.
Officer Dix pursued me while I turned away and told him you love her. He wanted to be with me lots of times. I could not get involved with that mellow drama at all! Officer Dix had no idea of what he was “creating” He felt that all of this was for his needs and his needs only. As time went by more and more he wanted to attend these sex parties and more and more it was mentally and emotionally hurting Tracy. All the while he pushed the more Tracy was happy to have a man in her life that she felt “loved” her sincerely. But this was not so, he then later told her they needed, again “they” needed a girlfriend. And so it was they were now on the hunt. They found one and her real sexual experience with two women and her boyfriend at the same time she enjoyed and was now getting very close to the new “girlfriend” because they had a lot in common!
It was now that Tracy had begun to go to parties by herself without Officer Dix, and she went to these parties with the girlfriend when she came in town or hooked up with others she had met along the way. Tracy was hooked, and Officer Dix had now gotten tired of the scene he had been in for three years! You see Officer Dix was sick with cancer and did not know it as of yet so he was always tired.
As Tracy was sick with Lupus and could no longer work Officer Dix was taking care of her and had grew tired and they never got married, he wanted her to move out of his home they had together. It took her three months to move out and as soon as she did, she now was a “lesbian” and had a girlfriend and back to work. I told Officer Dix this was all his doing, his fault as he relayed the information to me about her.
Well my time is up again!!! I must go, but I will of course catch you on the 12th episode of Erotic Cities!!
Toy High
www.justtoywrittenexpressions.com
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
EROTIC CITIES THE FLIP-SIDE THE DIRTY DIRTY SOUTH EPISODE 10
I now have to come back to a time and a space of which I have forgotten a lot! I mean because a lot of times we don’t want to hold on to a lot of things. Why should we? If we had a recollection of each and every thing that went on in our lives I believe we would truly go crazy and lose what faculties we do have. I had stopped for a period of time writing only because it had flooded me with good and bad. But I am back 2yrs later to finish what I started, my story on how I seen ATL and what I did, and how my part played in the vicious circle of The Flip-Side!
When I left off I was speaking on “Mark” a young man that was very persistent in getting to “know me” which was just sex only. One thing I can say about ATL there are a lot of people (not all) that are “fronting” that they have life and love money, men and women all in the back of their pocket. And for a selective few this was true! But for a lot it wasn’t, if people had a gotten a bad taste in their mouths about Cali saying that the people are “all plastic” then so goes it for ATL. Just as Cali you had a lot of people who were very plastic, lived or showed you a life that was far from the truth. When I met people I could see that they were sharp well put together dressers. And then when you went to their home or around people whom were close to them it all told a different story! That was “I really don’t have a lot, I don’t and barely have money and holding on to a weak job. And all the connects I said I have are really not feeling me.” A mouth full huh? Again this was not everyone, but how can one tell if you are meeting a sleuth of people and they claim to be “the one” you should get to know and have.
I had finally given Mark a good final no! That I was not the woman he thought I was and he couldn’t tap, hit, have, lay any of this here! I was beginning to feel as if I didn’t sleep with Mark that he would rape me! How could a young man as fine as him be so hard up that he would feel he had to “take anything from me? Hey rapist come in all shapes and sizes, good looks bad looks money fame and non famous and broke!
I had managed to get Mark off of me and I could not stay at his home any longer, it was getting late and I was tired of going back and fourth. I had no car at this time and the trains had already stopped running. So I had to stay the night, for some odd reason I had thought that Mark would be a selective few where I would not have stayed or hung out with Mark at all. It is like ATL had you under a spell of sorts. Like some people just stayed in this catatonic heat!
I left Marks house bright and early run down because I didn’t get any sleep. Had I had a car I would have been able to get home but due to the fact that we didn’t get to his home after 11p.m. and we caught a cab. Mark did not want to see me leave and was begging me to stay and that he was sorry the way he acted. But I wasn’t, I now knew where and how I would place him in my life.
The hardest thing I cannot understand is a person who does not understand the word no! And it was Mark that kept texting for almost a week and not getting a response from me. He was persistent!!!! And ignoring him was not working! Then it became begging!! I could see how many women were turned off, but the once fresh clean cut young man I had met had now turned into a desperate stalker! And as many women as there were here in ATL why was he pressing me so hard? Then there was the apologizing and me turning him down saying we could not talk, call, text or anything and that seemed to make matters worse after the insistent calls and texting that he was being ignored.
It was down to the wire and we were about to hear who are president would be. And a shock to a lot of people that we had our first Black African-American president! Mark was at my home when it was announced and so was my daughter there in tow. My daughter thought that Mark was boring, see-thru, and didn’t have much character and she didn’t like him. The only thing that saved Mark and let him come over was the fact he had “brought gifts” After we had all hung out sipped wine, I was tired very tired so we all turned in for bed. Mark was told that he was to sleep in the living room me in my room and my daughter in her room whom said she had locked the door. Again it was around early morning that Mark comes into my room and asks me could he “have some” I told him no. Of course this was my fault, but for the life of me I could not figure out why he was so desperate to have sex with me, why was he so pressed and couldn’t he have chosen another woman? But I had begun to think that Mark was this desperate stalker! I only had him over because he “Promised” to be cool and that how he was acting wasn’t him he just found me so damn sexy and attractive! Really? Not buying it! Mark had made three attempts in my room and I had put him out! That was that, and I had to literally put “do not answer” on my phone where his name should or would have been. He joined several others who had begun to be stalkers!
It was later on while doing some marketing and promoting for my site that I had come across a man whom I thought (again) would be really cool. He just so happened to live about fifteen minutes away. Born in the same month with both of us having soooo much in common. Sense of humor, and we shared a lot of the same views. While we chatted and chatted and my daughter had chatted we invited him to come by. Of course your first impression of someone most times seems to be a good impression. Because they give you good face of course. I know now but I had no idea that “Will” was attracted to me or wanted a relationship with me or felt I was the only one who could relate to him. I find that odd, but I found this out after I had ditched him and he had seen me on chat and came in to chat with me. But that is far into the story which I don’t want to get into now.
I did learn and very quickly I may add that Will was a huge eccentric in the sexual arena. However I also found out that Will had a lot of dysfunctional issues that spewed over into his personal, mental and emotional life. So much in fact it confused him about love, relationships and what he should and shouldn’t be doing in his life.
Will first and foremost had gotten a bad rep. I had met a couple of people who actually knew and met him and did not bite their tongue in what they had to say about him! My mouth was open wide with the info I heard!
First Will did so much! He was a producer (a job he really did have making and selling music for advertisers- I was impressed) then on the side he was a male exotic performer, Will was a huge exhibitionist! He loved being naked and showing his body. This was his first vice. Though he didn’t have a bad body, but he didn’t have a muscular body one you would expect a male performer to have. Next was Will had all of these explosive and explicit sexual fantasies spinning in his head, too many in fact for him to be able to cipher and work on one at a time. And the next thing was Will thought of sex or had sex on the brain most of the day. There was always someone he was pursuing.
One thing Will had told me was that he use to help throw swinger parties with his frat brothers, so he says it was about money and he never got into the sexual side of it but all and still he threw these parties. He said he would perform at them (male exotic shows) he also was sort of I guess you could say a man Madame. He seemed to have frat brothers that were married so he would always FIND a woman for them to hook up with to have sex. And he also provided his home for some raucous behavior. He loved watching he told me, “I just can’t sleep with any and everybody” This was really not the root of the problem. I later found out that Will had many more issues.
Will had asked me to do some pretty way out stuff for a person who had just met me. He asked me to call a few of my GF’s and ask if we could drive over there homes, honk the horn and have them come outside and be a judge to rather he had a big penis or not. (Confused) I had tilted my head to the side when I had heard this request. Who does this? Who would think like this? Can you imagine someone honking a horn, you come outside and judge what a man/woman’s private looks like and then go back in the house? I told him that I would not call any of my associates with such non-sense and I didn’t know anyone who would do that. I told him that he needed to ask his friends. He said that he has done that already. So I am sitting here thinking how much more validation do you need about how big or small you are? Of course I had not seen it, but he had told me that he was happy with it and that because he wanted to extend his audience more and start dancing in clubs. And that there were a lot of men that danced in ATL as male performers. Now you must understand that these men stripped down to nothing! And I can surely tell you that they do not do that in the clubs in Cali unless you are having a “private party”
So you see Will had told me that there were men whom he knew were larger than he was and from what I gathered he was intimidated. Really? So then I started thinking. And my thinking went many different ways! Was Will gay or down-low?
Will had asked me to do many crazy off the wall things that were very peculiar to me. He had asked me if I would have sex with his married frat brother because his wife was not giving him the type of sex he wanted (oral) and the women whom he had been with were all “low-life’s” and gave him a hard time. But I was a mature well rounded woman whom he believed I would be perfect and that I would get paid every time we had sex. Of course that was a no!!! And I was also asked if we all three could have sex, and if I would have sex with his frat brother and he watch!!! Now of course Will told me that his frat brother was asking him to ask me! He had left his business card with me, which I clearly tore up. I felt they were both at the center of it in my opinion.
It was one day that Will had asked me if we could have sex together, at this point and time I hadn’t been with anyone in over a month. The lover I had was having major ex-wife issues, child support, money, and job and home issues. And it was not going to work out at all.
I was shocked that Will had got his Janis backpack and low and behold inside of it he had put a……
My time is up, but hopefully you will catch up with me again for the 11th episode of Erotic Cities the Flip-side…. I am back giving you the full skimmy!
06/2011
Just Toy
Written Expressions
When I left off I was speaking on “Mark” a young man that was very persistent in getting to “know me” which was just sex only. One thing I can say about ATL there are a lot of people (not all) that are “fronting” that they have life and love money, men and women all in the back of their pocket. And for a selective few this was true! But for a lot it wasn’t, if people had a gotten a bad taste in their mouths about Cali saying that the people are “all plastic” then so goes it for ATL. Just as Cali you had a lot of people who were very plastic, lived or showed you a life that was far from the truth. When I met people I could see that they were sharp well put together dressers. And then when you went to their home or around people whom were close to them it all told a different story! That was “I really don’t have a lot, I don’t and barely have money and holding on to a weak job. And all the connects I said I have are really not feeling me.” A mouth full huh? Again this was not everyone, but how can one tell if you are meeting a sleuth of people and they claim to be “the one” you should get to know and have.
I had finally given Mark a good final no! That I was not the woman he thought I was and he couldn’t tap, hit, have, lay any of this here! I was beginning to feel as if I didn’t sleep with Mark that he would rape me! How could a young man as fine as him be so hard up that he would feel he had to “take anything from me? Hey rapist come in all shapes and sizes, good looks bad looks money fame and non famous and broke!
I had managed to get Mark off of me and I could not stay at his home any longer, it was getting late and I was tired of going back and fourth. I had no car at this time and the trains had already stopped running. So I had to stay the night, for some odd reason I had thought that Mark would be a selective few where I would not have stayed or hung out with Mark at all. It is like ATL had you under a spell of sorts. Like some people just stayed in this catatonic heat!
I left Marks house bright and early run down because I didn’t get any sleep. Had I had a car I would have been able to get home but due to the fact that we didn’t get to his home after 11p.m. and we caught a cab. Mark did not want to see me leave and was begging me to stay and that he was sorry the way he acted. But I wasn’t, I now knew where and how I would place him in my life.
The hardest thing I cannot understand is a person who does not understand the word no! And it was Mark that kept texting for almost a week and not getting a response from me. He was persistent!!!! And ignoring him was not working! Then it became begging!! I could see how many women were turned off, but the once fresh clean cut young man I had met had now turned into a desperate stalker! And as many women as there were here in ATL why was he pressing me so hard? Then there was the apologizing and me turning him down saying we could not talk, call, text or anything and that seemed to make matters worse after the insistent calls and texting that he was being ignored.
It was down to the wire and we were about to hear who are president would be. And a shock to a lot of people that we had our first Black African-American president! Mark was at my home when it was announced and so was my daughter there in tow. My daughter thought that Mark was boring, see-thru, and didn’t have much character and she didn’t like him. The only thing that saved Mark and let him come over was the fact he had “brought gifts” After we had all hung out sipped wine, I was tired very tired so we all turned in for bed. Mark was told that he was to sleep in the living room me in my room and my daughter in her room whom said she had locked the door. Again it was around early morning that Mark comes into my room and asks me could he “have some” I told him no. Of course this was my fault, but for the life of me I could not figure out why he was so desperate to have sex with me, why was he so pressed and couldn’t he have chosen another woman? But I had begun to think that Mark was this desperate stalker! I only had him over because he “Promised” to be cool and that how he was acting wasn’t him he just found me so damn sexy and attractive! Really? Not buying it! Mark had made three attempts in my room and I had put him out! That was that, and I had to literally put “do not answer” on my phone where his name should or would have been. He joined several others who had begun to be stalkers!
It was later on while doing some marketing and promoting for my site that I had come across a man whom I thought (again) would be really cool. He just so happened to live about fifteen minutes away. Born in the same month with both of us having soooo much in common. Sense of humor, and we shared a lot of the same views. While we chatted and chatted and my daughter had chatted we invited him to come by. Of course your first impression of someone most times seems to be a good impression. Because they give you good face of course. I know now but I had no idea that “Will” was attracted to me or wanted a relationship with me or felt I was the only one who could relate to him. I find that odd, but I found this out after I had ditched him and he had seen me on chat and came in to chat with me. But that is far into the story which I don’t want to get into now.
I did learn and very quickly I may add that Will was a huge eccentric in the sexual arena. However I also found out that Will had a lot of dysfunctional issues that spewed over into his personal, mental and emotional life. So much in fact it confused him about love, relationships and what he should and shouldn’t be doing in his life.
Will first and foremost had gotten a bad rep. I had met a couple of people who actually knew and met him and did not bite their tongue in what they had to say about him! My mouth was open wide with the info I heard!
First Will did so much! He was a producer (a job he really did have making and selling music for advertisers- I was impressed) then on the side he was a male exotic performer, Will was a huge exhibitionist! He loved being naked and showing his body. This was his first vice. Though he didn’t have a bad body, but he didn’t have a muscular body one you would expect a male performer to have. Next was Will had all of these explosive and explicit sexual fantasies spinning in his head, too many in fact for him to be able to cipher and work on one at a time. And the next thing was Will thought of sex or had sex on the brain most of the day. There was always someone he was pursuing.
One thing Will had told me was that he use to help throw swinger parties with his frat brothers, so he says it was about money and he never got into the sexual side of it but all and still he threw these parties. He said he would perform at them (male exotic shows) he also was sort of I guess you could say a man Madame. He seemed to have frat brothers that were married so he would always FIND a woman for them to hook up with to have sex. And he also provided his home for some raucous behavior. He loved watching he told me, “I just can’t sleep with any and everybody” This was really not the root of the problem. I later found out that Will had many more issues.
Will had asked me to do some pretty way out stuff for a person who had just met me. He asked me to call a few of my GF’s and ask if we could drive over there homes, honk the horn and have them come outside and be a judge to rather he had a big penis or not. (Confused) I had tilted my head to the side when I had heard this request. Who does this? Who would think like this? Can you imagine someone honking a horn, you come outside and judge what a man/woman’s private looks like and then go back in the house? I told him that I would not call any of my associates with such non-sense and I didn’t know anyone who would do that. I told him that he needed to ask his friends. He said that he has done that already. So I am sitting here thinking how much more validation do you need about how big or small you are? Of course I had not seen it, but he had told me that he was happy with it and that because he wanted to extend his audience more and start dancing in clubs. And that there were a lot of men that danced in ATL as male performers. Now you must understand that these men stripped down to nothing! And I can surely tell you that they do not do that in the clubs in Cali unless you are having a “private party”
So you see Will had told me that there were men whom he knew were larger than he was and from what I gathered he was intimidated. Really? So then I started thinking. And my thinking went many different ways! Was Will gay or down-low?
Will had asked me to do many crazy off the wall things that were very peculiar to me. He had asked me if I would have sex with his married frat brother because his wife was not giving him the type of sex he wanted (oral) and the women whom he had been with were all “low-life’s” and gave him a hard time. But I was a mature well rounded woman whom he believed I would be perfect and that I would get paid every time we had sex. Of course that was a no!!! And I was also asked if we all three could have sex, and if I would have sex with his frat brother and he watch!!! Now of course Will told me that his frat brother was asking him to ask me! He had left his business card with me, which I clearly tore up. I felt they were both at the center of it in my opinion.
It was one day that Will had asked me if we could have sex together, at this point and time I hadn’t been with anyone in over a month. The lover I had was having major ex-wife issues, child support, money, and job and home issues. And it was not going to work out at all.
I was shocked that Will had got his Janis backpack and low and behold inside of it he had put a……
My time is up, but hopefully you will catch up with me again for the 11th episode of Erotic Cities the Flip-side…. I am back giving you the full skimmy!
06/2011
Just Toy
Written Expressions
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
SEXUAL WARFARE WITH YOUR OWN BODY
Have we all forgotten about what is really important in life? Or are we all seeking the “quick fixes?” I believe we are! In a world that has the “hurry up and come get it and order it now you can have it fast technology” YES!!! So many damn new devices to get a quick fix. And the internet is one of them! Am I on it now? Of course I am! We are so lustful that we get on the net to get many things for ourselves. Let me break down a list for you:
A. Dating
B. Love
C. Marriage
D. Sex (this should have been number one!)
E. Friends
F. Cult organizations
G. Religious organizations
H. Jobs
I. News
J. Gossip
K. Shopping
L. Pedophilia (sick-o’s)
M. Moochers
N. Murderers
O. Con-artist
P. Sports
Q. Politics
R. TV shows
And the list goes on and on!
Right now I am going to focus on the sexual device (which is not the only lust in the world) so many people use this as the hurry up and buy quick drug! I recall when you could only seek a prostitute on the street or had to call an escort service. Now you can join millions of chat rooms, swinger organizations, swinger & orgy loose sex men and women who could care less if they get “sick dick” or not. (Venereal disease) And the funny thing (not in a ha ha way) is I have talked to many people in this genre and they (some) practice safe sex but don’t practice safe “oral” sex!! (I have the duh look on my face right now) Being bi-sexual is now the new heterosexual for a lot of people. (Notice I do not say all, most or everyone) Sex like food is an addiction and a real quick high!
I started writing on Erotic Cities the Flip-Side in 2006 figuring out the sex liaisons’ of two totally different cities because the attitudes were so different in both cities and states. Here I thought that people in California were a step above in a lot of areas because of the major cities that dwelled in the state, and to my wake up call it is the complete opposite! Though there is seedy and shady sexual discourse going on all over the world. California (in some locales or cities) is on the back burner and down low. (No comparison to the sexually down-low man who secretly sleeps with gay men) While yes sex bright lights and beach beauties are described in Hollywood as a lure and promoted. But when I lived on the east coast and visited the east coast I found that they were more advanced! Wow! Can this be true? A state or city that is more sexually promiscuous than another? Why yes! And some countries are too!
So I am amazed how you can Google by just typing in a few words in the search engine of what it is you seek for that quick sexual lustful high! Can a child click on “yes” they are 18yrs and older to get to these sites? Of course because the internet can’t ask you to show some ID now can it? Hmmmmm…..
Every place I have roamed I have been approached with some sexual advance. And here are these “people” willing too hook up over the net and hang out for sex. Uh do killers get on these sites to find their next victims? Um let me think about that….. (Jeopardy music playing) Well yes they do!!! Duh! Dammit I need you (some of you) to wake up! Rapists troll these sites as well. So sex to me is no longer dangerous because you could get AIDS, VD, Herpes or any other disease known to mankind for having illicit unprotected sex! You can now die instantly because this person has a fetish of having sex with you and then killing you! Too much!!
I have said to some men that have approached me via being on the east coast because I was not accustomed to such raw straight up out of the direct gate can I hit that now and come home with me ASAP. It was done with a bit more decorum. Soooo I had to get smart, I had to be direct and say, “You don’t even know me. You do not know if I have AIDS or any form of VD. If I am the type of person that would drug you and set you up. Yet you are willing to come home with me and have sex” The look on their faces! Priceless.
Now in any of these blogs have I professed to be holier than thou. I have changed a lot and I am a happily married woman. Who had to learn that sex is a drug. That it is accustomed for some to use it as such for money and power. For depression and anger, to get back at someone who has hurt them and place themselves in a precarious situation.
Can lust me placed on ice? Are we all that selfish that we need to feed our sexual desires that we are willing to put ourselves in precarious situations just for the sake of it?? IDK …. Don’t shoot the messenger… I’m just saying…
Well my time is up, but next time I speak on the erotic cities in the small hick southern no more than 1,500 people town and will tell you how they do it!! SMH
05/2011
A. Dating
B. Love
C. Marriage
D. Sex (this should have been number one!)
E. Friends
F. Cult organizations
G. Religious organizations
H. Jobs
I. News
J. Gossip
K. Shopping
L. Pedophilia (sick-o’s)
M. Moochers
N. Murderers
O. Con-artist
P. Sports
Q. Politics
R. TV shows
And the list goes on and on!
Right now I am going to focus on the sexual device (which is not the only lust in the world) so many people use this as the hurry up and buy quick drug! I recall when you could only seek a prostitute on the street or had to call an escort service. Now you can join millions of chat rooms, swinger organizations, swinger & orgy loose sex men and women who could care less if they get “sick dick” or not. (Venereal disease) And the funny thing (not in a ha ha way) is I have talked to many people in this genre and they (some) practice safe sex but don’t practice safe “oral” sex!! (I have the duh look on my face right now) Being bi-sexual is now the new heterosexual for a lot of people. (Notice I do not say all, most or everyone) Sex like food is an addiction and a real quick high!
I started writing on Erotic Cities the Flip-Side in 2006 figuring out the sex liaisons’ of two totally different cities because the attitudes were so different in both cities and states. Here I thought that people in California were a step above in a lot of areas because of the major cities that dwelled in the state, and to my wake up call it is the complete opposite! Though there is seedy and shady sexual discourse going on all over the world. California (in some locales or cities) is on the back burner and down low. (No comparison to the sexually down-low man who secretly sleeps with gay men) While yes sex bright lights and beach beauties are described in Hollywood as a lure and promoted. But when I lived on the east coast and visited the east coast I found that they were more advanced! Wow! Can this be true? A state or city that is more sexually promiscuous than another? Why yes! And some countries are too!
So I am amazed how you can Google by just typing in a few words in the search engine of what it is you seek for that quick sexual lustful high! Can a child click on “yes” they are 18yrs and older to get to these sites? Of course because the internet can’t ask you to show some ID now can it? Hmmmmm…..
Every place I have roamed I have been approached with some sexual advance. And here are these “people” willing too hook up over the net and hang out for sex. Uh do killers get on these sites to find their next victims? Um let me think about that….. (Jeopardy music playing) Well yes they do!!! Duh! Dammit I need you (some of you) to wake up! Rapists troll these sites as well. So sex to me is no longer dangerous because you could get AIDS, VD, Herpes or any other disease known to mankind for having illicit unprotected sex! You can now die instantly because this person has a fetish of having sex with you and then killing you! Too much!!
I have said to some men that have approached me via being on the east coast because I was not accustomed to such raw straight up out of the direct gate can I hit that now and come home with me ASAP. It was done with a bit more decorum. Soooo I had to get smart, I had to be direct and say, “You don’t even know me. You do not know if I have AIDS or any form of VD. If I am the type of person that would drug you and set you up. Yet you are willing to come home with me and have sex” The look on their faces! Priceless.
Now in any of these blogs have I professed to be holier than thou. I have changed a lot and I am a happily married woman. Who had to learn that sex is a drug. That it is accustomed for some to use it as such for money and power. For depression and anger, to get back at someone who has hurt them and place themselves in a precarious situation.
Can lust me placed on ice? Are we all that selfish that we need to feed our sexual desires that we are willing to put ourselves in precarious situations just for the sake of it?? IDK …. Don’t shoot the messenger… I’m just saying…
Well my time is up, but next time I speak on the erotic cities in the small hick southern no more than 1,500 people town and will tell you how they do it!! SMH
05/2011
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