EPISODE EIGHT

EPISODE EIGHT



It seems as if me getting closer to my time hear in this erotic city of Atlanta I am seeing more and more, hearing more and more stories. I begin to place myself as a recluse because I have those traits you see. Because when it gets warmer, colder here in Atlanta she seems to be bringing the hungry nature out of people. The want and the need to desperately reach out to the flesh.

There will be some name changes for the privacy of this episode not to reveal their true identity.

Recollection One

“Carol” was born and raised here in Georgia. No children at the age of forty-eight, and is a serious bike rider. And I must say that Carol has the body of a young lady in her twenties. Navel pierced, tight legs, she can wear her stomach out and show those taut legs. She is a very jazzy lady and has a strong addiction for sex and men. Her sex life, though for a lot of women who are in their forties has increased. She has always been a sexual being, and she exudes sexuality in all she does. She would be considered what they now call cougars. But with her it is slightly different; her prey is not of the younger men. It is more due for the men just a few years her junior. A strong flirt with a love and drive that she has no shame in. She sniffs coke almost daily and especially before sex, she hangs out with bikers, but her work life consists of her being and looking very conservative. She is the type of women that will have sex with any woman’s man if she is benefiting.

Carol has sent me pics by text message of her in some pretty precarious situations. Her giving men felatio and we are nowhere near being close friends at all. I have invited Carol to one of the parties I had thrown. Well she actually was invited by a man that I was dating at the time. And this was a man whom said that he could not handle my sex drive and that I needed to be with a woman who had money and was as sexual as I was while he sits and watches the game downstairs in my home. And he could come and join in later. I was aghast, only because how does anyone have the gall to tell me what they are going to do? Not asking, just telling me. How can anyone tell anyone what they plan on doing? He wanted me to have sex with Carol; he called her without my knowledge. He sent her pics of me via text messaging without my knowledge. I have never had a man just offer me over to another woman.

The gentlemen I was dating I will name “Steven” was drawn to my sexually uninhibited nature and was so open to see and try things that he had not. But was this my job to share myself with a man and a woman? I think not, and Steven was one of the many men that I had met in my past that said they were adventurist. And he really had not done anything too far out of the ordinary. Of course since he had mentioned, or told me this my feelings had changed for him. I was not in love with him; however I had love for him. And what I thought was a vey immaculate man had now turned into “They others” Like all the other like minded men. And now my respect had dwindled.

Of course I did not go through with this. While I had distanced myself from Steven, I could never ever take him serious. While Carol was portraying this good girl image, she was far from it. She was interested in illicit sex, but group sex. And she had just left a relationship with a woman for the past two years. And she was more than ready to be with a man. She had revealed this to me, telling me type of man she liked. And that so happened to be my significant other “Drew”

Drew was the type of man she longed for. I had gone back to Drew after I was with Steven. Steven and I had dated for a very short period. And Drew and I had only separated because of some financial issues on his end. Drew had tons of pride, and did not want to be with me until he had a job. However, I did not end the relationship because he was not employed. I knew the type of man that Drew was. Very genuine and loving and such a woman’s man.

Knowing that Drew was with me, Carol asked me, and then said that she was attracted to him. Hmm…I have seen Carol out, we did not become close, but she was a tease and threw herself at men. This was embarrassing to me. And the usage of coke, I am not a judge and have no right to judge anyone for what they do because I am far from perfect. But we are in the south and the tolerance for having drugs on your person did provide a penalty. And that penalty was jail, fines, probation, rehabs, etc., so it was not feasible for me to be around her. And she did this the two of the three times we were in each others presence. And she offered me a sniff the first time. Carol let sex rule her so much that she was upset when she could not have it, and when the men she would give herself to did not pay. Carol use to be an exotic dancer for twelve years.

Carol always sends me porn texts all the time, the jokes and video you may get from others. And what was oxymoron; she would always send me prayers, uplifting scriptures of angels, Jesus and God. I was totally confused of who she was.

RECOLLECTION TWO

Why would I not think that people who were politicians, detectives, policeman, and medical doctors did not have lives outside of their career that they indulged in. Because they do, hobbies, sports and the like. However I never knew that I would meet policemen and politicians who were heavy swingers.

Politicians and anyone in law enforcement is not only supposed to be around any narcotics. But even being off duty they are suppose to report suspicious behavior and not be in the company of people who sell or do drugs of any sort. You would think, but not so. I will tell you about “Officer Ron” in a bit. Who was a police officer for Fulton County, Atlanta Police Department.

There are close to almost two hundred swinger organizations in Atlanta, and many private sectors that you were personally invited to. They were not ones to have a huge following. Small sector of elite people, these are the people that are truly picky of whom they have in their circle. And it is not that easy to get in.

Now, as I have stated in episode three and four about swingers. I have attended parties before and have been invited to so many it is ridiculous. I definitely know that at these parties there are lots of drugs sold and taken. And in this, policeman and politicians are fully aware. But the rule of thumb is, if I don’t see it then I have no knowledge of it. However, if this place is raided, then of course their career or job is at stake. My point is this, are you so caught up in the lust of the flesh where you would jeopardize your status, career, or job for just that one night? I guess so. Well, yes one would. I use to be in the entertainment industry, and one thing I couldn’t do was have sex with the men I worked with. I held an authorative position that I never thought that I could ever see or have. Being a VP was very important me. And I did not want to have a dirty reputation. The men would always come in speaking of their sexual conquest. And speak on the after after party. I never ever indulged in the after after parties. Why? Because I knew what went on there. And the one thing I did not want to see the people I worked with in the light. As far as I was concerned, men and women could hoar themselves. And I looked at it all the same way, men did not get a pass from me because society tended to give men a pass with running around having sex with a lot of women.

When you have the pass to get high, drink and have sex it is a huge concoction for some wild and crazy drama. What behooved me the most was that Ron had a girlfriend whom he had turned out just like pimp does a low self-esteem young woman or girl. A woman who was desperately seeking the attention of having a man in her life because she was needy. And so he told her that he was a swinger, and this was his lifestyle. I could tell when I met her that she was not very comfortable with it when she first started. But it did not matter to Ron, he knew he had her. Even said he loved her very much. If one says so, I guess I come from the school of old. Yes, I am open to a lot of things, and yes I was at time okay with sharing. But I could not see me being married and giving the okay that my husband and I have this type of lifestyle. Back then yes, now, no.

Ron plotted and plotted and now his girlfriend was where he wanted her to be. Open to the whole new world of having sex with other men and women to please her man. And yet, living this lifestyle where he said he was open to, he now wanted to have sex with me on the side and let her know about it so that he wouldn’t feel he was cheating on her. (??) Ron is a very aggressive man, and I would not have felt comfortable having sex with him and his girlfriend knew about it. And then I would have to look in her eyes and be in her company. It is different if we are all at the swinger party and indulge, because everyone is aware of why we are there. I know some of the things that I may reveal may seem oxymoron. But for my personal reasons, when I partook of those things, I didn’t want to develop or have a relationship with any persons sexually outside of that circle. The only exception to this rule was that if they had knowledge in regards to business or assisting me to taking my career to the next level then I was okay with exchanging business cards.

Ron tried me all of the time, and he did not hide this from his girlfriend, and it was hard for me to except his phone calls because he would seem to always take it to when was he going to see me. I wanted Ron’s phone number because he was a cop. And just in case…….

And no matter how many times I told Ron that I didn’t want to have sex with him. This did not stop him from calling me in the wee hours of the morning. The men who did have my number did not want to except that I was giving these parties only to make money and nothing more. I did not participate.

One must understand that in this city of eroticism most of the residents who were bombarded with sex on their minds did not want to assist you get to the next level unless it involved sex in some sort of way. I was very dismayed with this production of so-called brotherhood. Meaning that I thought we all were suppose to add and uplift in our making it to the top of our careers or business’ “I want to have sex with a woman first before I start a relationship with her.” Is what I was told by a gentlemen who I had given my number to. I was surprised, I know that we all are at times so attracted to another person that we may jump at the opportunity to have sex with them. But to be so abrupt in revealing this info to a person when you are trying to get to know them makes no sense to me at all. Sex was like going to a Mc Donald’s drive-thru and placing your order, it was just that easy.

I will say that my eyes were open to all of this madness, and that I got caught up for a spell. And the reason why I had started to give parties was because it was easy money and something that a lot of people were into. But as time went on, just like the entertainment business had worn me out with the lust of the flesh. Atlanta, well she was wearing me out with all the extreme sexual aggressiveness of the men and women there. When I met a man who said he hadn’t had sex in a long time, I did not believe them. Too hard for me to believe them. It was too easy to get!

See you at episode nine, when I get to more and more personal stories and interviews….

Toy High
www.justtoywrittenexpressions.com
5/2009